Listen Linda

Change.

Everything changes. Seasons change. People, habits. Perspectives.  It is a profound and inevitable part of life. And there has defiantly been some changes in my life. And what matters the most is that IM ALIVE. IM SOBER. And I’m still here to write another blog post.

Jokes aside. It’s a cold world. And it’s important to have friends. And that’s something I’ve struggled with in the past. Friends. Friendships. I like to say I’m a girl’s girl. And I am. However, I always found it to be one sided, and we all know about fair weather friends. Or friends of convenience. OR my recent favorite: Fake friends for life. And I really hate people sometimes. That’s why it’s hard for me to trust. But it’s not hard for me to open and tell you something profound. I’ll give in to my people pleasing fetish only so long until I won’t.

Can I be a little self-destructive? Oh, absolutely. In fact, I had made it a good habit of keeping myself under a resentment chip. And keeping tabs on which mistake I was tormenting myself for. And let me tell you…. I’m very good at keeping everything I won’t tell you, or show you, under lock and key and then keep it to myself. Because I have a hard time trusting anyone.

I do know that keeping things buried can be isolating. And that’s never a good thing. So, I need to stop doing that.  Take a leap of faith and trust that not everyone is undeserving of me trusting them. I get it, they have got to trust me too. Can’t have anything without trust.

So, another change for me?

Let me trust you?

Maybe, just a little.